I don’t know.
I mean, yes, I know that I haven’t been posting.
I’ve been writing. I just haven’t been posting.
I don’t know why.
I feel like I’m in limbo.
I don’t even know why.
Day to day life is fine. I feel fine.
The girls are fine.
Tom is still broken, which saddens me.
We’re going out our days, doing what needs to be done.
But I worry that we’re marking time; not really moving forward.
What am I waiting for; the next scan…the next mammogram…the next appointment with the next doctor?
I don’t want to live like this.
I want to get beyond cancer and what it’s done to me and my family.
I wonder if I need to volunteer or something like that. Should I be giving back to the community I never even wanted to join?
My cancer diagnosis put my work (ha!) with Share Your Story on what is apparently permanent hiatus. I just never made it back after going to tell them about the cancer.
I want to help people beyond myself but I haven’t yet figured out how.
What’s next?
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